What am I worried about?

Serious things:

1. That the node biopsy will say that it is in other places and I'll have to have chemo.
2. That I won't be able to take it when I look down after surgery.
3. The pain. Shit, the pain.

Silly things:

1. What am I going to do with my hair? How will I EVER fix it?
2. I won't have my cell phone in my hands for 2 solid days. Not texting a friend? Painful. But not texting while completely stoned? Smart. Really smart.
3. Gaining weight. Normally not a silly concern, but in this context? Silly.